if and only if i could

salam...
how should i explain this??..
it doomed me..
fell like crying..
em just the Merciful Allah knows this..
i dont know..
plis Allah, my only Lord..help me to face all these things..
i just heard my voice within without thinking twice...no offence right??
it is happened so fast..felt like i dun even realise it..
even though i knew my decision seems would not make 'that person' happy or contented..
deep down me...a deep apology to you my dear fren..i did not mean to do it..
you know what, all those really intensified me with negative thoughts, perception, and somehow i dont deserve to be your fren..

till then~

easier said then done..

hye peeps..
its been a while not to post anything....i guess..

heaps to write..try 2 minimise..

da late ni..

oops since when i bother about LATE??

huhu..

yep as usual as ever be..my english profiency..

feeling like i never learn english at times..

arggh doomed me again..

and LDV assignment..

keep reading and browsing to extract the crux of them all(articles)..

and lastly come out with an excellent one..('best-seller'-so called,,)

insyaAllah..with the peserverance and determintion..wah kalo mis ratha bce ni sure bangge tho..=]

papepon..

lupe an jap pasl assignment..

argghh td g waseh for dinner..

quite late la..yep before ni just hatching a plan nak bli burger pas2 mkn kat rum..

skali abg yg msk cam chef 2 xde lak..haeh..

nak xnak g la mkn kat tempt pling bersih kat jb..

then,

well im not sure this time shifa called me or me myself called her..it goes like this..

anumalona : fa, ko nak pape x..

shifa: xyah la.td da suh shue blikn..

anumalona: ok2..sure ni xnak pape..

shifa: ha ko blikan an soya je la..1 jew..yg keck taw

anumalona: ok2..

(again as usual we talk to each other with the kind of 'quirk' slang..hhaaha)

5 minutes later we proceed our way to the opposite shoplots..

lalu dpan kdai mamak 'mcm2 ada'..coz de 1 of us nak topup..then, unexpectedly came hilarious qalam..haehs..tetibe nak jerit kat ak..ntah ape ntah die mrepek time 2...

haha he claimed that ak kantoi ngan *****..sje je..menganjing ak with those balloney things..

lpas qalam interframe 2 ktorng pon nak blik la..

haha sgt irony!!

seriously i forgot to buy the only 1 soy milk for shifa husna!!

obviously i'l turn to 19 but suffered to short term memory lost..(its exaggerating)

how pathetic..

btol shifa xtipu..lupe sgt..

start to realise this when she sent me a message in skype..

then i only noticed it..wawawa feel like crying now..

guilty sgt..

well people might say that on what porpose i wrote this post..

GUILTY..thats the thing..

im being transparent when it comes to tell people about what saddened me of and guilty...again..!!

well problems strike people's live like the pouring rain..

so my life is..

with the ultimate hope, im praying hard that shifa wont be mad for that matter..

Amen..=)

done with my chattering..

till then...

he's so hypocrite..=(

(im so like 'this' after heard the news..)

what should i say??

he's happily doomed me...

yeah he is so good at hypocrisy..

(you are freakin out my life!!)

WTV!!..

past is past..

all those lie in the intangible..

seriously pissed me off r..tolong r.. ckp xsupe bikin..emm 2 la LELAKI!!ayat nak sedppp..

it broken my heart la gak..coz he moulded me with all those pious thinking..

papepon..i'l try to look on the bright sides of what had happened..

well people change right..

anyway..the crux that i incurred...be sensible over what you are doing..whether gud o wrong..think twice..otherwise what's undone can't be undone..

2 la dulu ckp mcm2..janji 2 janji ni..pas2 wat2 lupe..

so,

jgn jdi cam 'makhluk' ni..(mulut die de byk sgt gule..)..sape2 r yg patot..

(wee..cheer up darls!! take it easy..rileks sudeyh..)
~ i goes like 'this' after sometime..huhu~

yep done with my chattering..

~till then~

buckle up guys!!

safety first..fasten your seat belt..
sounds familiar huh??(last time nampk ni kat dlm bus..but what sadden me so badly is that the condition of it!!)

yeah 100% familiar..
well undeniably it's a law reinforced worldwidely and every human being ( so-called) has to abide by it..(mat rempit never do this..obviously..)


and it is loudable when its come to people who do buckle up everytime they get in the car..
easy huh?? INGATLAH ORANG YANG TERSAYANG...
well definitly the word 'loudable' not for fame la..it's a MUST!!

hurmm..exception would be granted to the most hot vampire on the earth..my honey; Edward Cullen..tq
[wink2]..

okey..im done with my chattering..
~till then~~

action speaks louder than word!

here comes the new resolution...

Im trying to face the reality...what is past should be past..there are lot of important things to think of..future especially..time to change..time to change to make a new step and a new breath..

you have the ability in yourself..try harder to accomplish it..do not spoil y our entire life just because those baloney things out there!

how i wish to get over my old self..insyaAllah..so now put extra effort to execute everything planned..hopefully my effort done ingeniously.

nothing else..but..

hehs..

boredom??
here it strikes ma life again..
its totally galling me!!
n so wat??!!

kerinduan...wee..

wooppss!!kerinduan sama shiapa??like da...$%&##

peepers out there plis do not be cheated by dis title..

huh..

btw the 1st thing that come out of ur trail of thought is a person that so-called 'boyfriend right??

haha...nah bkn deyh..xde kaitan langsung..

act malu lor nak gtau kerinduan sama shiapa..

oh my gang larut malam surely know dis..

its been a long time not meeting HER..

as though i felt like dying all days long..

no one can describe how much pain inflict on me..

a day without her would bring my day to an end..

she is my sweet sweet mis r****!!

spell it ursef..aha..
she's the one with a nice scent..=)
one of the most fabulous woman i had ever met before..omg!
every times she mouthed the words;its so like dazzle me..
she is the woman with a determined heart n a sophisticated look..
how i wished to be like her someday..ahaks..

hehe..sje jeh ni..
da one that i meant is kind of related to 'poetry' la..
she's teaching enlish s*****..
cam dapt je teka an...
so in a nut shell, i missed her so much!!